Making Magic, Even in the Mess

Lately I’ve been struggling to keep up with everything I want to do. I don’t want to come across like I’m complaining because I’m truly grateful for the life I have. Considering everything I’ve experienced and worked through to get here, things are better than I ever could’ve imagined for myself.

But I still feel the guilt sometimes.

That lingering sense that there’s more I could—or would like to—be doing. I can imagine all the possibilities, and it’s hard having to say no to some of them. Even though it’s challenging, I know that’s part of life. It’s okay to feel. It’s okay to honor those emotions.

And it’s also okay to let go of them.

On Seasons, Surrender, and Space

One thing that’s helped me navigate all of this is thinking of life in seasons.

Each one brings different priorities, interests, and energy levels. When I don’t get to something, I remind myself: there will be another season for it. That thought gives me space.

This blog started as a passion project. A creative outlet to share my interests and adventures with others trying to cultivate a more magical life.

But if I’m being honest, life hasn’t always felt magical.

When the Fire Dims

Over the past couple of years, I navigated my first layoff and balanced parenthood while freelancing and applying for jobs. I’m fortunate things worked out and I’m employed now, but I was spent. This blog fell lower on my list of priorities.

And honestly, part of me struggled with the idea of continuing to pursue joy and magic when it feels like the world is constantly on fire.

But after reflecting, I realized: there’s only so much I can do. And I’m much better off focusing on that than getting overwhelmed by what I can’t.

It’s not a new idea, but it was hard for me to internalize.

It’s been a mindset shift that I have to keep practicing.

The Magic in Small Things

I can’t save the world. I can’t control my country’s leadership or stop climate change.

But I can be a good person. I can use my skills to uplift others. I can create things that bring me joy—just because.

That’s where I find magic now—not by escaping the mess, but by moving through it with intention.

In making magic, even when everything feels messy.

This New Season

I started thinking about how people have always lived through crisis—wars, plagues, famine, *insert catastrophe here.*

There will always be something. But that doesn’t mean there can’t also be good things.

And I think an important part of life is finding out what those good things are.

For me, that means helping the people I care about, like my family and friends. It’s about writing and creating art that can inspire others. Building community. Holding space for joy, even when it’s hard. That’s how we get through the dark times—together, with intention and heart.

This is a new season.

I’m feeling the fire inside me again.

And I’m going to let it blaze.